An unsuccessful man

An Unsuccessful Man

I am an unsuccessful man,

Unsuccessful in love, in relations, in society, in worth to my parents and over all these unsuccessful to me,

Causes I know not or perhaps I know,

Remedies I know not or perhaps ….,

Everybody needs a chance to become successful

But I don’t want it,

My tears never comes out

But it wet my soul,

My tears are still falling

But to a corner of my heart  where only I can feel it,

I weep but show not,

I laugh but just for a friction of time,

And at the very next  moment  I realise that curse upon me,

Day by day as counting goes on,

I found myself  nearer  to death,

Death which also plays with me,

Leaving death I went to a canteen to try drink first time ever,

I took one or two sips

And I found myself unsuccessful to doing this,

I am very afraid of my future,

I am afraid not to anybody but to myself,

I cannot  commit  suicide  because it does not suits me,

I have to live an unsuccessful life and set an example

That I can live it successfully…..,

                                                                                      03/06/2013